Luke 2

But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart. (Luke 2:19)
... but His mother kept all these things in her heart. (Luke 2:51)

I used to have a pressing need to address any issue or problem I might have at hand. It is in me somewhere to give the present issue an analysis and to come to a conclusion about something.

But I gradually learn that we cannot have an explanation for a lot of things. At least, not now. The time is not right yet.

Mary probably didn't understand many things regarding her son, Jesus, especially during His growing up years.

This was the son of my womb. But this was also the Child which was brought by the angel to do great things. And now, before my very eyes, He is doing and saying marvelous things that I don't really understand.

However, Mary did not discard all that she saw and heard. She kept them in her heart and pondered about them. And she continued to serve as a mother does, bringing up her child in the Lord.

There are many things that I do not understand presently. Based only on my own understanding, I cannot figure out why some good people suffer, why some zealous Christians can never accept the Truth, why some people's heart can change so fast, why some believers still do not receive the Holy Spirit even though they have been fervent both in prayers and in service, why are there division in the True Church,.......

I do not understand, but I know that the hand of the Lord is in it. And if that is so, there must be something good.

All things work together for good to those who love God. (Romans 8:28)

And these do not take my eyes away from my duty on earth, that is, to be a Christian and to serve my Lord.

But these will be kept somewhere in my heart, for these are the things that I am concerned about. When I do my quiet-time with my Lord, that is the time when I can ponder and ask God about them.

And at the right time, God will reveal, and let me know. :)